L.I.F.E

it can't possibly be right!

ive been wanting to write. i dont know what stopping me. i miss you, a lot. im not just saying that.
i might act like i dont care. i didnt write much. deep down inside, im so curious and wondering every single day.
did you miss me? did you think of me when you out there? what you doing when you alone? all that.
it seems so silly, coz if i never ask, how am i suppose to get all the answers

i am not a person that is good with word, let alone a big talker. but i must confess that
i love you. ive always been, even after you told me, even after you made clear that you are not into commitment and dont want a relationship.
yes, i am that stubborn. i still want to be with u. that makes me happy. then again, i thought. being beside you, around you, assuming that, with time,
you might just change your mind and that will give me a chance.
i guess people dont just change.

but you know what? i will always love you, in another way, always

which is which, actually.

i dont even need you to say it

it wasn't something i do just for fun

i'm watching you;

quietly;

from appear;

to disappear.

it's not that you will ask or remember anyway?

i dont hate you;

nor dislike you;

just that;

you're not my type of hang-out;

that's all.

you're gone;

that's it;

you never write;

never call;

never say goodbye;

you despise me that much.

i just want to sit with you;

sit with you;

sit with you;

and then let you know how much i miss you.

maybe you never bother;

or perhaps;

you've always been right?

why do you have to make me?

making me believe you're right;

pretending to be as such;

regardless of all points.

it leads to nothing.

why can't you just answer yes or no?

why do you have to be so neutral all the time?

that's not the way it worked;

when you deliberately want to annoy someone;

usually you'll fail;

you can't do it on purpose.

A mea culpa at the beginning........

很有意義的十句話

第一句
沒有一百分的另一半　只有五十分的兩個人

第二句
付出真心　才會得到真心　卻也可能傷得徹底
保持距離　就能保護自己　卻也註定永遠寂寞

第三句
通常願意留下來跟你爭吵的人　才是真正愛你的人

第四句
有時候　不是對方不在乎你　而是你把對方看得太重

第五句
冷漠　有時候並不是無情　只是一種避免被傷害的工具

第六句
如果我們之間有 1000 步的距離　你只要跨出第1步
我就會朝你的方向走其餘的 999 步

第七句
為你的難過而快樂的　是敵人
為你的快樂而快樂的　是朋友
為你的難過而難過的　就是那些　該放進心裡的人

第八句
就算是 believe　中間也藏了一個 lie

第九句
真正的好朋友　並不是在一起就有聊不完的話題
而是在一起　就算不說話　也不會感到尷尬

第十句
朋友就是被你看透了　還能喜歡你的

or maybe it's alwaz been just that.

too much compliments at one time;

stepping away with a smile;

looking back;

being as friendly as i could be;

trying not to be rude;

searching for a sense of reassurance;

a gentle touch of hug;

seems to be emotional-less;

feeling-less;

hopeless.

there should be something;

even the slightest of feeling;

mind drifting away;

remember some good o’ time;

with someone else............

it's never just that, remember?

it all comes back to me now;

this time;

i will resist.

i don't know what's wrong;

maybe there's never been any;

where should i start?

what should i ask?

i've lost that loving feeling;

i don't know how to hold someone's hand;

not anymore.

Just.

it's just that;

when you are not around;

there's no reason for me to;

i won't be bother;

coz i just don't see a point;

but now;

that you're back;

everything changes;

i just want to get hold of you;

so so so badly;

and you have no idea.

what is the one thing.....

what is the one thing that remind you about me the most?

that's how i remember you.....

d, i want to buy you a pair of converse, remember?

before you go;

it's a promise.

i love you.

97582364397652586236129651 seconds and counting;

blood dripping out;

from my vain;

from my body;

from my soul;

uncertain;

undetermine;

unheal;

restlessly dripping;

visual of you;

floating in my mind;

please forgive me.

effortlessly keeping;

relentlessly waiting;

memories swaying;

never end;

never end.

hardly anyone can be as annoying as you

it gotta starts somewhere;

someone has to do it;

so let's be me;

i want to treat you right;

from now on;

without complicate things anymore.